I had to change my negative self-talk, to talk nicely to myself, to be gentle and not be soo demanding with myself. I was in the shower the other day (I know. It seems like everyone get their epiphany in the shower) and I heard myself say, I will be 6 months postpartum soon, I SHOULD be…. And then I caught myself and think, wait what. No! I shouldn’t be anything! My postpartum journey will happen for me when the time is right. I just have to put my head down and keep grinding. It isn’t easy for sure. But there is no SHOULD, there is no time frame to follow as to when I will feel 100% like myself. It all will happen for me. I need to change my self-talk to; yes maybe by 6 months postpartum I should try to be able to do 5 unassisted pull ups again. And if I don’t. maybe 3? Alright then. It is all hard, I know. Continue reading My breastfeeding Journey
Some days I feel like a shell of a person, sometimes I feel like all I am doing is feeding, pumping, eating, and hydrating. The first 2 months of PP, my body felt strange, and it didn’t feel like mine and like it belonged to someone else aka my baby girl.
And sometimes I don’t even know what to do with it even though I have been taking care of it my whole life.
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I need to learn harder to be gentle with myself.
It’s hard. So hard.
I need to give myself some grace.
Sometimes I even feel soo guilty just taking an hour a day to myself.
Fitness is a huge part of my life, but I feel like I’m barely holding on.
I want help but I also feel guilty asking for help.
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