Oh! The mom guilts. It was literally shoved into me the day I pushed Freya out. It was like here is your baby but here is all the guilt you will experience for being a woman that birth a child. Mom guilt never ends as annoying as it is. The mom guilt kicks into full gear anytime and any moment you don’t want it to. You work too much, or you don’t work enough, you spend soo much time with your baby or you don’t spend enough time with your baby. It all soo minute. You can have it all, do it all and it still wouldn’t be enough because mom guilt isn’t even about that. Its psychological and the only way out is self-love, discipline and ignoring the negative talk. Continue reading My postpartum journey 1 year later…
So here is how I did NOT lose weight while breastfeeding. I just wasnt one of those lucky moms. I was the mom that ate whatever I want, whenever I want while I was breastfeeding because I felt I was never full and always hungry. I was feeding Freya for 10-12x a day and the weight did not budge. I gained about 10kg during pregnancy and dropped 4 kg once I left the hospital with the baby. 1 month postpartum I dropped another 2 kg and by 6 months postpartum I was still 3 kg above pre-pregnancy weight. These are just numbers, and I don’t take them seriously, but I wanted to write it down for context. Continue reading Losing Baby Weight While Breastfeeding?
Some days I feel like a shell of a person, sometimes I feel like all I am doing is feeding, pumping, eating, and hydrating. The first 2 months of PP, my body felt strange, and it didn’t feel like mine and like it belonged to someone else aka my baby girl.
And sometimes I don’t even know what to do with it even though I have been taking care of it my whole life.
Continue reading My Postpartum Body
I need to learn harder to be gentle with myself.
It’s hard. So hard.
I need to give myself some grace.
Sometimes I even feel soo guilty just taking an hour a day to myself.
Fitness is a huge part of my life, but I feel like I’m barely holding on.
I want help but I also feel guilty asking for help.
Continue reading The 4th Trimester